Walls

With my God I can scale a wall. Psalm 18:29

Wow, how have I missed this Bible verse before now? Sure I have read before. But yesterday I must have really needed it. Im sure many of you can relate.

Deep grief is complicated. Several years ago one creative person expressed deep grief/thoughts as scribble all over a piece of paper. Showing how our thoughts just go “everywhere”. I think most people who have a child in heaven can relate to this picture of grief. But yet, we are each so different in our grief. Every situation around their death is different. And then each one of us…not to mention our other immediate family experience it all differently.

Ive realized that much of how we react to any situation in our lives is directly related to our personalities and how we look at things. Let me use myself as an example. I am fairly black and white in how I look at the world. Of course as Ive grown in my experiences…I do realize there are shades of grey! I think this has given me a different perspective on losing a child and my own personal grief. Not better…not worse than other people. Just different.

It has helped me to learn more about myself. In this process of healing from the deep grief Ive been able to look inward. Who am I really? One book that I have read to learn more about me and how others react is called, “The Road Back to You” by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stahle. Here’s a link to the book.

https://www.christianbook.com/road-back-enneagram-journey-self-discovery/ian-cron/9780830846191/pd/846191?en=google&event=SHOP&kw=christian-living-0-20%7C846191&p=1179710&dv=c&gclid=Cj0KCQiA7OnxBRCNARIsAIW53B_QVU-RlilqwJ_ptLWOFHhmp_J2XJo_Fes7TaHRREto8x5zpdMUrboaAiLcEALw_wcB

Sometimes it may feel like no matter how much God heals us…we are still not quite healed yet. I felt God tell me I am healed. I am different now. God has transformed me to the person I am today. This is just who I am now. I know too much to ever go back to the person I was before Benton ran ahead to heaven. And sometimes when I have a hard day I just have to jump that wall with God’s help.

Thank you Lord for your scripture that is the Living Word of God. And that your Holy Spirit dwells in us and gives us your light. Your power. Your glory. Amen